Well, I censored a blog entry (10/28/2001) for the first time ever... It just feels so weird; it's like, I can't say what I really think anymore. geez... the things I do to make other people happy...

Man, I sucked it up on the calculus test today. I'm so pissed at myself... I fell asleep last night before I could study. I usually don't even have to study for math, but I didn't do most of the hw for this unit... grrrr.... It came back and bit me in the butt!

Man, sleep is like a drug. You get too much of it one time, and you're addicted. Then you gotta go through the hard and painful process of withdrawal to get unhooked. While you're on it, you'd do anything for it... you start losing sense of your priorities... school, friends... they all take a back seat to this wonderful new drug. SLEEP IS RUINING MY LIFE!!! =P

I just got back from my MIT interview. I'm not sure how it went. It wasn't quite as obvious what he was getting at as I thought it'd be... like, you know how sometimes people ask you a question, and you can instantly tell what they're really asking? Yea, well, I couldn't tell today- maybe he really did just wanna know about me... naahhhh... what are the odds? =P

PLANO WEST HOMECOMING 2001 - full coverage

Friday. Right after school, the girls took us to Tom Thumb, and we did like this weird 2 minute shopping-spree type thing - kinda weird and pointless at the same time. Then we went to Cherry's (my date's) house; all except Rex, since he had to go to the game cuz he's in band. The guys got to design (draw on) t-shirts that the girls would have to wear all night. Some of 'em wrote some really embarrassing stuff, but it was funny. I didn't feel like being mean, so I drew like ninja turtles, pirates, and misc. doodles. We went to a restaurant called Timpano - average. Then they took us to watch 13 Ghosts at Stonebriar, but my date and I walked out like 20 minutes in cuz it was too freaky (for me, at least), haha. Man, I'm such a scaredy-cat when it comes to supernatural stuff. Ghosts/ spiritual stuff is like KRYPTONITE to me! Anyways, so we snuck into K-Pax and watched like the last 20 minutes of it. Then I suggested that we go to Barnes & Noble and have gelato (Italian ice cream). We went to another Starbuck's afterwards, and that was about the end of the evening.

When I got home, I tried to get to sleep ASAP, cuz I'd hafta wake up at 5:00 the next morning to go to the CoCo BEST (robotics) competition. I was getting into bed at about 12:00 when I realized that I had to prepare for Saturday night's after-dance activities. I drove around to 2 supermarkets to find what I wanted. I made flan and an Oreo cream pie; it all took longer than I expected. I finally got to bed around 2:00.

Saturday. The next morning, I woke up late and was flooring it over to Tim's place to meet the CoCo BEST team. I got halfway there when I realized I'd left the map to the place back at my house; I got to Tim's place late. I then had Mike drive my car to the competitions site so I could sleep in the passenger's seat. But then, he goes and get in a CAR ACCIDENT, driving my car! He collided with an 18-wheeler and got knocked off the road! I came out of my sleep as it was happening... sooo freaky! When the cops came, Mike couldn't explain what happened... not clearly at least. Man, it's ALWAYS pissed me off how he can't articulate his ideas clearly... the cop musta thought he was making up his story or something. geez...

The competition was exciting... , but we got slaughtered, haha. We weren't the worst, but some of teams were just really good. We had to do an oral presentation about our robot development to a panel of judges, too. It was basically just Tim and Amit talking the whole time. I wanted to say stuff, but I ended up just standing there listening to them talk; there was nothing I could say that they couldn't say better... that must be what Kevin feels like when we do science fair, hahahahaha. I left about halfway through the competition to prep for homecoming.

I baked some brownies, showered, changed, and left for the meeting place. Rex was like an hour late, so we didn't eat til like 8:00. We ate at a place downtown (Dallas) called Dakota's. It was the big secret that Johnny had been keeping all week. It was really nice... there was like this man-made waterfall that was really pretty. I tried pheasant for the first time in my life- tastes like chicken, hahah. After dinner, I realized that I'd left the dance tickets at home (AW CRAP!).

We didn't get to the dance til like 10:30. (***CENSORED*** so as not to hurt people's feelings; you'll have to talk to me personally for the full scoop.) Let's just say the actual dance part of the evening was less than pleasing...

After that, the guys had originally planned to have a moonlight picnic, but it didn't work cuz it was cold and windy as heck. So instead, we set the whole thing up over at Cherry's place while the girls were gone. We had candles and rose petals, and we served them desserts that we'd made ourselves. It was a really romantic idea, but I don't think it turned out all that well. Then we popped in the video of Friday; I got tired and left like 30 minutes in. I got home at 3:00... or 2:00, actually, because of daylight savings. I slept for 11 hours straight... it was soooo refreshing. I didn't have a chance to do my Chinese school hw cuz I woke up so late, though.

ARRRRGGGG..... I want SLEEP sooooo badly! I haven't slept more than 4.5 hours any day this week. I usually make up for nearly no sleep during the week by getting like 10 hours each day on the weekends, but this weekend is homecoming... so I'm not gonna get any sleep. And I've got the competition for CoCo BEST tomorrow morning (; gotta wake up at like 5:00), so I seriously won't be getting any sleep. Maaaaannn, looks like I'm gonna have bags under my eyes in all my homecoming pictures again! grrrrr....
Oh yea... and my toe still hurts. =(

uggghhhh... so tired... hw takes freaking forever. I fell asleep from 12:30 to 2:30AM... man, even if I hadn't fallen asleep, I'd still be working right now... Man, I don't think I'm gonna be able to finish it by sunrise... ugggghhhhh... =(

*whew! just found out physics is due Friday (10/26/01)... saves me for tonight, but won't save me in the long run... that just means I'll be losing the 3 or 4 hours tomorrow morning instead.

Dang, I think I dislocated my toe at martial arts club today. It wasn't so bad a second ago, but now that the adrenaline is wearing off, it hurts like a mug!!! I'm walking with a gimp leg now, hahaha.
We were doing shuai jiao, and the instructors at the school where we hold the meetings saw us, and they wanted some "fun time," haha. So we took turns being their dummies and gettin' schooled. Well, at least it was educational...

My mom came back from Taiwan today, and we dyed our hair together. Man, I hate those "one-size-fits-all" gloves that come in the box... yea, they're sure to fit... if... if... ummm... if you've got really small hands (; I was sitting here for like 5 minutes trying to think of something clever, but nothing came to mind =/ ). Well, anyways, I remember this one time, the glove had torn like completely without me noticing. And I'd gotten the dye all over my fingernails, and I couldn't get it off... So for like several weeks, it looked like I had purple nail polish on one of my hands, hahaha... d'oh!!

I dunno, it never turns the color I want anyways- it turns orangish-brown when I use blonde, and purplish when I use red. A general rule of thumb (for Asians) regarding hair coloring is: your hair will never turn the color on the box... Dye in the US is made for like blondes I guess, so nothing really shows up well on dark hair; either that or something funky happens. The most efficient solution is to bleach your hair first, but I think that's a huge pain in the butt- so I take my chance with the "funky." haha

Oh yea, and my mom asked me, "Is it still fashionable for Asians to dye their hair?" I don't really know; I guess it's true that it doesn't seem as popular as it used to be... But oh well- for now, I like it, and I guess that's all that really matters.

I just got back from an iron palm seminar. It was awesome! We never get to do cool stuff like that at my kung fu school. Then we did board breaking, and I broke a board using chi for the first time. Like, I've broken stuff using just brute force before, but it was completely different this time. It was completely effortless; it was like my hand just fell through the wood as if it were a big potato chip. Soooooo cool!
I'm still in amazement, but it's like, I don't know if I really believe in chi or not... but I just can't explain how else I coulda been able to do that so effortlessly. Well I dunno, but I don't think I can concentrate my energy fast enough to ever be able to use it in real life anyways. =/

Oh yea, we had to perform kung fu today also... not very cool. It wasn't very good, and no one came anyway.

Oh yea, I removed RealPlayer from my computer, and I'm surprised how much quicker my computer is now. I mean, the change is like amazing!!! No more slow down, no more skipping MP3's, no more losing 30 minutes every day on the computer clock, haha. But for real, I guess you gotta always be kinda skeptical about free software... I guess they intentionally put a few bugs in to make you wanna buy the real version, hahah... well, can't blame 'em I suppose.

I ran some sprints tonight at kung fu, and my feet were getting really hot (especially when stopping). Afterwards, I was thinking about it, and- wouldn't it be cool if there were shoes with some kind of chemicals in the soles that, when jolted a certain way, would undergo an endothermic reaction and cool down your feet? That would be like so awesome! Well, that's my opinion anyway... maybe I just need to tie my shoes tighter, haha... yea, I guess that'd reduce friction.

...and I've been getting these really bad headaches recently. Well, actually, I guess not all so recently. I've been having them since school started. It feels like someone just pushing in on my brain from different directions- like squishing it. I think lack of sleep is really starting to get to me; I average about 5 hours a day.

Man, I've like nearly fallen asleep driving home from school like every day this week. I'm so drained of sleep. But well, I've been getting these really weird revelations like right when I'm on the verge of falling asleep and come back. Like, just the other day, I fell asleep while stumped on a calculus problem (not while driving), and when I woke up, I like magically knew how to solve the problem.
And yesterday, I almost fell asleep during a lecture in statistics class and woke back up; and like, I woke up thinking the teacher had said something important, and I just like started writing without even knowing what. I looked down on the paper, and there was some physics equation relating like velocity to period or something- nothing even close to statistics; I didn't get it, so I erased it.
And today, I nearly fell asleep while driving home, and I had this idea about like storing light or something- the details disappeared as I became fully awake.

They say you should keep a pad of paper & a pencil by your bed because strokes of genius come in the wee hours of the morning. Man, what if I've been having these "strokes of genius" but have just been dismissing them as nothing? Like, what if that physics equation was real, but I just haven't learned it yet; or what if that method of storing light is some kind of revolutionary technology?? whoa! that'd be amazing!! haha, what are the odds?

My cousin came over tonight (last night), and we just kinda chilled. It was his birthday, but we didn't do anything particularly special. Umm... we had steak for about the 3rd or 4th day in a row. My dad bought like enough ribeye to feed a small army, just cuz it was on sale, haha. But seriously, I am getting pretty sick of steaks... I didn't think it was possible, but I guess every other meal for half a week+ starts to get to you.

Man, I never have a pencil nearby when I need one- despite the fact that I like intentionally scatter them all over the house. Like, I usually have a couple stashed under my bed, like 5 on my desk (that I never use), a couple on the floor, and an entire stack next to the computer in my room... yet I didn't have any by the computer I'm working at right now. Sucks... I guess that's why I resorted to just carrying a pencil around in my pocket. I wonder why I stopped doing that, or at least why I started taking 'em out after school... Oh yea, it's cuz my mom got sick of finding pencils in the laundry, hahaha. D'oh!

I just got back from an MIT info session. They showed a rather amusing video, and that was probably the highlight of the entire evening. Umm... the most pertinent piece of info that I got out of the presentation was the fact that, after scholarships, grants, financial aid, etc. etc., the average student contribution is like 5 or $6,000. Wow, that's like as cheap as in-state tuition. But I dunno, I'll ponder on that thought more if I get in.

Ummm... oh yea, there was this really tall guy sitting right between me and the podium. It was so annoying; I just wanted to like chop his head off or something, haha, j/k. =P I had to miss like 3 club meetings to go to this thing though. Man, I'm so busy on Mondays; I haven't gone to real Monday kung fu class like since like August. Oh yea, my Dad (and I) got lost on the way there too; man, stupid Yahoo! maps... grrrr! Getting lost in downtown is an extreme pain in the butt. We had to get on a highway and drive like a mile before we could turn around as opposed to about 10 ft if we coulda just made a U-turn.

CRAPPIT!!!!!!! I just realized I spent over an hour doing the wrong hw assignment. I did this week's assignment instead. I'm so freaking pissed at myself right now. I was all like, 'hey, I don't remember learning this stuff! What gives??' geez... ugghhh, man, I've got so much hw left too... man, I'm dead...

Here's a page to help people explain why they aren't Christian. I've read several articles and watched some documentaries about the same subject. This one's not bad, but it kinda sounds like a Buddhist looking for random reasons to slam Christians... but yea, it brings up some good points:
http://www.uq.net.au/slsoc/bsq/budchr0.htm#cont
*on second thought, maybe it's not so good... it's so obvious the author is biased

Like when I reminesce about embarassing events from my past, I often find myself talking to myself to drown out the embarrassing thoughts. Is that weird? Oh yea, then people around me are like, "eh? Are you talking to yourself again?" haha

I was talking to Nien about good books that we've read, and we both realized that we used to read (for pleasure) a lot more than we do now. I've got like 5 books on my shelf just waiting to be read (, 3 just cuz I want to, 2 that I was supposed to have read for school). It's like, I feel guilty doing pleasure reading when I know that I ought to be reading a textbook instead. But, of course, since I couldn't possibly stand that, I end up reading neither.

Here's my list of favorite books ever: Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Dune, Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas, Redwall

Man, I took the SAT II's this morning- died on it, ugghhh... I'm so used to like completely owning standardized tests that I wasn't prepared for something so hard. The Writing was the one that pissed me off the most. I was finishing up my essay, and I had this killer conclusion lined up, but they called time before I could get to it. GRRRR!!! Then, Math IIC was like precal all over again- not all that hard, but short on time; I seriously only had like 2 minutes to spare (i.e. check my work). And well, the Physics... haha... no comment. Err, rather, as Mike like's to put it, "I forgot!" Hahaha. =P Oh wait, I'm supposed to wait 'til after I get the results to say that. =P

Ummm, yea... last night, there was a tornado WARNING for my county. I was pretty freaked out. I mean, we get tornado watch all the time, but I've never seen warning before. When I was younger, I'd always be like, 'tornado warning? haha, they're not gonna have a house tomorrow!' So you can understand why I was reasonably distressed last night when I heard. I woulda blogged about it last night, but my dad shut down the comps so they wouldn't get screwed up by lightning.

oh yea, and my mom left for her vaction back to Taiwan this morning.

ACK!!! I just got asked by a girl to homecoming! What do i do? WHAT DO I DO!?!?!? ugghhh... I mean, I guess I'm not personally opposed to going, but I'm opposed to shelling out $200! *sigh* I mean, last year's hc wasn't exactly the time of my life, or anything. Is it worth it to go again? But, I'm a sucker for getting asked out; I just don't have the will-power to turn a girl down... quite the dilemma...

...and on top of that, my friends are wanting me to enter the Mr. West pageant (a mock Miss America-type pageant for guys at our school (Plano West Senior High), with a comedic tone) as Mr. LASER (the science fair club). I mean, I really want there to be a Mr. LASER in the pageant... I was just hoping it wouldn't have to be me! geez... what to do, what to do???

Man, life's really been stressful for me recently. I feel fatigued all the time- and not just physically tired, but like spiritually tired, too.

I could really use some free time right now. Not the pseudo-free time of fall break, but like one completely free of worries of having to DO stuff. It's like, breaks and weekends aren't restful for me any more, because I know that there's stuff I OUGHT to be doing. *sigh* ...it weighs heavily upon the soul. I wish I could just get away from it all; just for a little while...

I've got this leather jacket that I've been wanting to wear so bad, yet I don't cuz it smells so awful! I got it last year, and I've only worn it like 5 times since it smells so bad. I've been airing it out since like this time last year, but the stink just won't go away... I mean, this thing is RANCID! Well, I came up with the clever plan last night to hang it over an air freshener, haha... I hope this works.

We had martial arts club again tonight, errr... yesterday (just like every other Monday & Thursday, but I was too lazy to blog about). We ran out of stuff to do really quickly, so we kinda began like semi sparring (; we didn't feel like putting on pads). We did it taekwondo style, with all legs and no hands. Well, I like to do muay thai style knee blocks against kicks, but it was just crazy against these taekwondo guys- it's like they've got steel toes. Now I've got 2 humongous welts on my shin. =(

They put speed bumps in the student parking lot at school over the break... sucks. You turn your back for a second, and the next thing you know, they're putting in speed bumps! I feel so betrayed, haha.

Man, I hate it when you get all comfortable while doing your hw, then you get distracted, and when your attention falls back on the hw, your pencil's disappeared. Then you gotta get up and go find another pencil. And it's super-annoying when you realize after you've found another writing utensil that your original one was in a really stupid place. (e.g. under where your butt was, haha) That seems to happen to me a lot, and then I can never seem to get quite as comfortable again as I was before the whole incident.

We had hot pot (shabu shabu, whatever you wanna call it) for the second consecutive night at my house. Man, I thinks it's pretty funny how we Texans start complaining how freakin' cold it is any time it gets below 70 degrees, haha.

I just had a dream about a Gundam arcade game that was a cross between Virtual On and Counterstrike (, Mechwarrior-ish, I guess). These teams of 4 robots were like duking it out in a snow-filled plain with like rockets, machine guns, beam swords, and everything. One team was in Taurus mobile suits (or maybe Epyons, couldn't tell... something red/black), and the other was in Gundams (, not fair, huh? haha, oh well, it was just a dream). Well, the even cooler part was, in the spectator area, there was like a humongous 3-D (hologram?) projector (, or a very convincing tv), so it was like you were watching real 20 ft. robots fight. I think the game was called like "GEARR" or something... not like it matters, it wasn't real. But anyways, I was on a team with my kung fu buddies, and we were dominating, haha.

Hey, wouldn't it be awesome if this were like that episode of "Futurama" where a company invades your dreams to advertise its product? Man, that would be so cool if they really made something like this.

I'm starting to fix up the blogger template to put in a comments section (Reblogger) for each blog entry and to fix the links on the timestamp to link directly to an entry, not just the archive page that it's on. Well, anyways, it's a complete MESS!!! They clearly ignored proper "programming style" and "rules of readability"; man, my comp sci teacher would have a FIELD DAY with this stuff!

Speaking of my comp sci teacher, I had her do like 3 college recommendation letters for me, so I figger I should probably give her some sort of thank you present & a card. I was thinking for the card, I'd make it myself, and have some sort of C++ program segment on it. Like, the idea I've been turning over in my head is:
On the front of the card, declare a class called teacher, and create one named after my teacher; and have a function inside it that would cout something like "______ (teacher name) is cool!" then have the function call itself (infinite recursion).
Then, on the inside of the card, have like a mock blue-screen of death, and have it say like, "Warning!! System overload! Teacher _____ is too cool!"

I dunno, tell me what you think on the nifty NEW COMMENT FEATURE!! =P

*NOTE: I think Reblogger stinks... it erased my comments... I don't recommend it.

Daggone it!!! My home networking system is retarded!!! Like communication between computers is still bad. It started when I got the nimda virus, but I ran the nimda fix utility from symantec.com like a gazillion times already. geez, it's pissing me off... I've spent like 2 hours trying to get a new printer mapped, and my server pc crashes for the dumbest reasons. Like, I tried to get to the control panel, and the entire computer locked up. uggghhh.... stoooooooopid!!!!

Man, I feel like my life is just wasting away. I'm on fall break this week, but I don't feel like I've done any of the stuff I intended to do, namely study for the SAT II: Physics - I'm running out of time too, it's in like a week and a half. I've been spending most of my free time working on CoCo BEST... I think. Well, as always, I can't account for where 50% of my time goes.

...Whoa, it just occurred to me that maybe I'm like that guy in Fight Club, and I have an alter-ego that takes over and does whatever it wants for a couple hours at a time, and I have no recollection of any of it later on. It's weird, cuz the more I think about it, the more plausible this idea seems! =/

I finally got around to watching the 9-section whip instructional video that Krist let me borrow. I didn't really learn a whole lot (, if anything)... it was like all stuff that I knew already, and their like step-by-step descriptions of what to do weren't very good anyway. Well, I went into my backyard afterwards and practiced for 45 minutes.
I managed to knock my glasses off 7 times (I was too lazy to put in my contacts) before I decided to just keep 'em off. Some people hear that and think that that's like crazy cuz you could "get yourself killed if you can't see what you're doing," but you really go more on feel than sight when it comes to weapons- or at least that's been my experience. Haha, but for real, I'm like pretty dangerous without my glasses; my prescription is soooo bad, I'm practically blind, hahaha.... no, seriously!