Misery Business. So things took a turn for the worse on my job, and it looks like the worst case scenario is panning out. So funding for the project got cut absurdly low, which is juuuust short of the finishing stroke of a death sentence. I guess technically, it's still petering along on life-support, but it's grim... totally Terri Schaivo-esque.

Anyways, so whereas a couple months ago, everyone thought they had jobs- we were wrong, we were VERY wrong. Instead, it looks like they're gonna be laying off like 95+% of the workforce. They never explicitly TOLD us who was on the layoff list, but I suppose with these kindsa numbers, you just know if no one tells you you're on the NOT-laid off list.

We've already been notified that our official last day is March 31 (after which the company ceases to exist- long story), but they'll probably just send us home after the 26th. And they shut down the computer network on the 20th, rendering us pretty much useless after that.

Needless to say, morale has been really low recently. With the economy the way it is now, it's been tough for people looking for new jobs. We had an official clean-up day today at the office, and i think that's when it really hit home- taking down all my cubicle decorations, packing up my mini-pantry of snacks, and tossing out the documents in my filing cabinets; seeing the once vibrant office environment reduced back to its original, skeletal cubicle farm state. It was a rude awakening. As they said in Bad Boys II, "Sh*t just got real..."

And for the first time, I'm facing the very real possibility that I could be collecting unemployment soon. =/ You never think it can happen to you (welfare is for the BUMS who're just too LAZY to get real work! I thought), but then it does... and it turns out YOU'RE the bum. Guess the shoe's on the other foot now, huh? -_- They held seminars during work hours telling us about claiming unemployment, severance, and COBRA, and all that stuff- depressing. A cold shot of reality.

Well, as much as this sucks, at least I don't have it as bad as some of my coworkers, I suppose, who're underwater on their houses and have families to take care of. If it really comes to it, I'd get 2 weeks severance, and I have about 3 weeks of PTO saved up- that'd tide me over for a little while and buy me a bit more time to figure out my next move.

Anyways, I AM hunting my next job, and I do kinda have something I'm working on, but it's FAR from a bird in the hand, and I don't wanna jinx it. But otherwise, it'll be time to bust out the job hunting desperation moves, limit-break style, hahaha... hah.. ha.. hmmm. =/ ... =X It's like those lost couple months after college graduation all over again. >_< *siiiigh* Pray for me, if you believe in that sorta thing...