Owww, my eyeball! Man, I think I lost a contact in my eye. I had fallen asleep with my contacts in and woke up rubbing my eyes vigorously. When I finally opened my eyes, I only saw clearly out of my left eye. I got up and looked in the mirror to see if it my right one had drifted in my eye, but I didn't see it. My next thought was to scour my pillow, bed, and surroundings for a dried up contact, but found nothing. Then I got the omg feeling when I realized that there was a very strong possibility that it had drifted to the back of my eye- where it's like nearly impossible to get out. This used to happen to me back when I first got contacts and didn't really know what the hell I was doing, but I always managed to fish it out. A couple years back though, something similar to what happened to day occurred, and I eventually came to the conclusion that it had fallen out of my eye, it had to have, otherwise there's 2 of 'em floating back there now! Aggghhh...

I'm not really even positive it's there (in the back of my eye), but just thinking it's there makes me feel like it is. It's like how if you imagine a bug crawling down your neck, you start feeling it, even if there's nothing really there? Cuz my eye only bothers me when I think about it. Yea, I really hope it's just me psyching myself out. Cuz I'm deathly afraid that in like a worst case scenario, it could wander in the back of my eye to where that nerve is that connects your eye to everything else, slit the nerve, and leave me blind and in need of a pirate eyepatch. =O

*changed up the blog template again

Jeff and Adam (my roommates from Loveboat) came and visited UT this week for their Spring Break. Had a lot of fun catching up. But man, I realized that other than eating, drinking, and partying, I honestly don't really know what there is to do in Austin for fun.

Got back from the trip from Vegas and Cali. Had a good amount of fun, but it was a really tiring trip. Me, my brother, Henry, and Hsiang in my family's van. We left mid-Sunday and drove non-stop to Vegas and got there late Monday afternoon. The drive was insane though, we ran into two snowstorms along the way. We stayed with some of my brother's friends at Mirage, then we gambled all of Tuesday before heading for Cali. I lost $150 gambling (my pre-determined quitting amount), but I actually had a good bit of fun while losing it, haha. I learned to play craps, and I love it now- it's my gambling game of choice. But dang, I was down to my last 10 dollars (down $140), won back up to only -$10, got greedy and lost it all again. Hsiang said how it was more fun watching our facial expressions change with our winnings than actually playing the games- "drama of the human spirit," if you will. We crashed Tuesday night in Newport Beach with another of my brother's friends, Steve. Wednesday, we walked around the beach a bit, ate at a restaurant by the beach called Lynch Mutt's, cruised the town in Steve's convertible, got some Vietnamese coffee, then headed south towards Mexico. On the way, I spotted an illegal immigrant crossing sign and laughed out loud; it was particularly funny cuz we'd seen like deer and ram crossing signs on our drive so far. Anyways, we parked in a lot by the border, then walked across into Mexico. We got a taxi to Tijuana (TJ) but it was deserted- it was kinda freaky seeing a complete tourist spot like that turned into a ghost town. (Apparently that's just what it's like on weekdays.) So we ended up taking a taxi to Rosarito (another tourist spot) and went to a club called Papas & Beer. The club was amazing; I dunno if you'd even describe it as a club- it was like a fortress with a sandpit in the middle with beach volleyball. It was a really cool place, but I just really wasn't digging the crowd. Passed through TJ again and crossed back into the US (apparently all you need to get back in is your driver's license). Stayed the night at a Motel 6 like 5 minutes from the border. On Thursday, we went to San Diego and I chilled with the Mouse at UCSD while everyone else went to the Beach. We had lunch at the UTC (mall) and then hung out at her place. (Props to the Mouse for hanging out with me instead of studying for finals.) Met back up with my group, and we headed back towards Texas on Thursday night. Drove non-stop again and arrived in Dallas Friday evening.

Overall, I guess it was a pretty positive experience. I don't know if I wanna go on a roadtrip that long again anytime soon though. We spent two solid days driving to play for 3 days. I dunno, I personally think it woulda been smarter to fly it. But I guess everyone's gotta take a roadtrip at some point in their college experience- it's just one of those things everyone has to do before they graduate (and reminisces about when they're middle aged), and I suppose it was the last chance for my brother before he graduates in May. If nothing else, it was a memorable trip. Those Napoleon Dynamite quotes that eventually got so old by the end of the trip: "freaking idiot!" and "pyuma". And those terrible (drunken) attempts to speak Spanish: "diez y cinco" and "negra". That's what I'll remember from this trip I think.

gone on roadtrip to vegas/LA for pretty much the whole spring break. be back mid saturday probably

Which is more painful: failing or not even trying?

(...or succeeding yet deriving no pleasure?)

I went and saw Cirque du Soleil's "Varekai" tonight. It was really good. It's my second favorite out of the four Cirque shows I've seen. Anyways, I liked the whole Icarus/fallen angel theme and acceptance of wherever destiny leads you. I love how these shows can either be chock full of story and symbolism if you wanna read into it, OR it can just be acrobats doing their thing in goofy outfits... and it works either way. Good stuff. Oh yea, and I was seated in the third row; close enough to really see their facial expressions and to hear the little kids counting in Chinese like, "one, two, three, GO!" It was hard to see some stuff going on cuz I couldn't see the whole stage at once though... kinda like sitting real close to the screen at a movie theater. Anyways, it was a a good experience overall