"Every time I try to leave, something keeps pulling me back, me back." Funny (read: "sad") how things have a way of never working out the way I hope. It seems to be a recurring theme for me that I just can't seem to get where I wanna go in this life. =/
*Ok, well, since it's not happening now anyways, I guess it won't hurt to mention now, that a couple posts ago, I alluded to some big shakeup in the works for me. At the time, I'd been negotiating and finagling for an internal transfer to my company's office in Montreal, Canada. And I talked to a couple of managers with connections, and I had been given the impression that with a couple emails & phone calls, this job was as good as mine. This transfer was supposed to be as "in the bag" as anything would ever be. I even checked out a couple Montreal guidebooks and French language books from the library in anticipation.
Well, this week, I got a call telling me that they'd given the job I applied for to a guy from London. *le sigh* Heartbreak! =( I know that technically, no promises were ever made, and I never had anything in writing, but I still can't help but feel a bit slighted. (It's as if my whole experience with Schlumberger taught me nothing. Gotta learn to stop counting my eggs before they hatch. =/) I feel like such a chump. So it was back to the drawing board (; more on this in a sec).
So I've got this vague list of things-to-do I'd like to accomplish in my career, and working internationally has always been on it. And when it came up that this was an immediately available possibility, I was super psyched. Within the company, there are occasional opportunities to go abroad. (I had also had my eye on office locations in Brisbane and Perth, Australia.) But alas, I guess it was not to be. I've come to the conclusion that it's all about WHO you know in this company. But I guess no matter how well connected you THINK you are, there's always bound to be someone else who knows even MORE powerful & influential ppl than you. =/
(text removed) I've got a lot more things to say that I probably shouldn't post publicly. "If you can't say anything nice... don't say nothing at all."
"When life gives you lemons,make lemonade you shut up and eat your [dang] lemons." I'm trying my darnedest to make lemonade, but it's tough sometimes. =/ Whatever, forget Canada... who needs 'em!? =(
Anyways, so after having had some time to reflect (I had actually vaguely seen the rejection coming when they didn't get back to me for a few weeks), I thought about what my backup plans & contingencies were. I came to the conclusion that if I shuffle around my priorities for the next 10 years and bump "work internationally" down on my career to-do list, I suppose the next highest priority would be to get a graduate degree.
It is SO easy to just sit here all day and say "I'd LIKE to do this and that... eventually." But it's time to man up- I don't wanna be the type that's all talk and no action. Sometimes you just gotta stand up and take charge of your own life. I claimed that a big shakeup is in the works... am I gonna make a liar of myself? Time for ultimatums? The squeaky wheel gets the grease, right? ...or was it the nail that sticks up gets hammered? Dangit! >_<
"It's easy to sit there and say you'd like to have more money. And I guess that's what I like about it. It's easy. Just sitting there, rocking back and forth, wanting that money." ~Jack Handey
*Ok, well, since it's not happening now anyways, I guess it won't hurt to mention now, that a couple posts ago, I alluded to some big shakeup in the works for me. At the time, I'd been negotiating and finagling for an internal transfer to my company's office in Montreal, Canada. And I talked to a couple of managers with connections, and I had been given the impression that with a couple emails & phone calls, this job was as good as mine. This transfer was supposed to be as "in the bag" as anything would ever be. I even checked out a couple Montreal guidebooks and French language books from the library in anticipation.
Well, this week, I got a call telling me that they'd given the job I applied for to a guy from London. *le sigh* Heartbreak! =( I know that technically, no promises were ever made, and I never had anything in writing, but I still can't help but feel a bit slighted. (It's as if my whole experience with Schlumberger taught me nothing. Gotta learn to stop counting my eggs before they hatch. =/) I feel like such a chump. So it was back to the drawing board (; more on this in a sec).
So I've got this vague list of things-to-do I'd like to accomplish in my career, and working internationally has always been on it. And when it came up that this was an immediately available possibility, I was super psyched. Within the company, there are occasional opportunities to go abroad. (I had also had my eye on office locations in Brisbane and Perth, Australia.) But alas, I guess it was not to be. I've come to the conclusion that it's all about WHO you know in this company. But I guess no matter how well connected you THINK you are, there's always bound to be someone else who knows even MORE powerful & influential ppl than you. =/
(text removed) I've got a lot more things to say that I probably shouldn't post publicly. "If you can't say anything nice... don't say nothing at all."
"When life gives you lemons,
Anyways, so after having had some time to reflect (I had actually vaguely seen the rejection coming when they didn't get back to me for a few weeks), I thought about what my backup plans & contingencies were. I came to the conclusion that if I shuffle around my priorities for the next 10 years and bump "work internationally" down on my career to-do list, I suppose the next highest priority would be to get a graduate degree.
It is SO easy to just sit here all day and say "I'd LIKE to do this and that... eventually." But it's time to man up- I don't wanna be the type that's all talk and no action. Sometimes you just gotta stand up and take charge of your own life. I claimed that a big shakeup is in the works... am I gonna make a liar of myself? Time for ultimatums? The squeaky wheel gets the grease, right? ...or was it the nail that sticks up gets hammered? Dangit! >_<
"It's easy to sit there and say you'd like to have more money. And I guess that's what I like about it. It's easy. Just sitting there, rocking back and forth, wanting that money." ~Jack Handey
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