I've been having these work-related nightmares recently. It's causing me all sortsa stress. And I'm pretty sure it's because I've been put in charge of 2 performance-based incentive (PBI) items for the company. So the way I understand it, these PBI's are like a bonus round for the company, and for each one we finish, the company gets like a cash bonus from the government (our client). (Whether or not the underlings like me ever see a penny of it, I dunno.) But yea, I guess it's just intimidating cuz, for the first time, I'll be able to back calculate exactly how much my work is worth to the government (...and I don't really know yet, but I'm venturing a guess in the 7- or 8-figure range). And in a way, I guess I'm personally responsible for all that money. It seems like a pretty large burden to shoulder, a lot of pressure... hence the nightmares, I suppose. I guess I'm just so scared of failing, so scared of letting everyone down. And I dunno, realistically, I shouldn't have any problems, but you know me- I'm a worrier.

I talked with my mentor about it, and she said that eventually you just learn what is and isn't important. Once you put in your hours and go home, just forget about it for the day- it's not worth bringing the stress home with you. I dunno, I guess it all just sounds easier said than done at this point. I mean, what if it got to the point where I was putting in overtime? How could I not worry about it afterhours?? Bah, well, worry about it if it ever comes to that, I suppose. =/