So me and the guys watched Juon, the japanese horror film, last night. We watched both the made for tv movie and the theatrical one. I actually screamed out of pure horror during the tv one; my screams during the theatrical one were more frequent and less intense. After it was over, I didn't think it was that bad, though I'll admit, on the walk home, I turned around probably every 30 seconds to check behind me. Same thing with the shower (just the fact that I worked up the courage to actually shower was an accomplishment in itself)- I musta turned around a total of like 10 times, and not kept my eyes closed for more than 5 seconds at a time... and I think there was a lot of unnecessary elbow flailing during those 5 second stretches, hahah. So I watched Trigun after that for an hour or so to get my mind off of Juon.

I got to sleep okay, but then this morning, as I was kinda starting to stir, I kept getting images in my head of white-bodied children and contortionist ladies peeking out from all corners of my room- and I'd awaken in speechless fear. After this happened 3 or 4 times, I decided it was time to get out of bed.

And then just a sec ago, someone called my room phone (even though I seriously never get calls on that)- I was extremely hesitant to pick up for fear that I'd hear meow-ing or that guttural throat sound. OMG, I don't think I'll be able to look at kids or cats for the next couple days; and if the lights flicker or my Winamp starts skipping, I'll probably have a heartattack and die, hahaha.

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total-obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
~ Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear, from Frank Herbert's Dune